hanging my hat
i've basically fallen off the face of the earth. i know i know. i've neglected my blog for far too long (how many of my blogs have started this way?). i've reworded, rephrased, and rewritten this post so many times that i can't remember exactly what it was that i was trying to convey. there's so much to say and i've been so blessed during this journey that i'm constantly humbled when i look back, but after much contemplation and thought, i've decided to hang my hat as a photographer.
while revamping the site, i realized how many couples and families i never got around to sharing with you and i felt this overwhelming sense of guilt... because i loved every single one of you and am immensely grateful for how you've shared your selves with me. this post resonates the most with me and it's the one i go back to and read over and over again, even today, when i no longer am taking any new clients... because it was never about me, but the moments that i got to spend with people, making connections, and how they let their guard down and let me in to see them.
what's crazy and what i never expected was how much i would learn about myself in those moments when you let me in your life. how many times i've wiped my tears behind my camera as i watched you cry, how proud i felt when you so fearlessly and transparently loved another, how full my heart was when i saw you transition into your new role as mom/dad/wife/husband, or how my heart would break when you felt like you were drowning in expectations. in the end, i might have taken your money and your photographs, but the most precious piece that i walked away with was your story and the wisdom behind it; which will always allow me to remember how to better be myself and live my life because of the person in that photograph (you). and just like that, you have all become parts of who i am.
i thank you all from the bottom of my heart, for all your love and support. for believing in me and trusting me not to mess up one of the most important days/moments of your lives (so far!)... i can't wait to see what's ahead and would love nothing more for us to cross paths again. words won't ever express the depths of my love for weddings and for love, however that might look for you.
PS. if anyone is still here, bear with me as i slowly share some of the bits and pieces of myself that i never got around to sharing.